hold my hand, little
tree, see how dirt
bubbles dry and the
sea will turn green.
let it be,
i see whispered in
the lines of the
dying birch tree.
hold my lavender
shoot along groves
i miss you ’s
littered in the sun
like dandelion seeds.
i forgot how to
pray and the lie
is i never knew,
i needed to pray
to anything but
a hymnal of
plants budding green.
green buds, form. otherwise we
will sink into sidewalks grown
sticky from the layers of a
drugged out winter.
we are born
again and again
out of the little green buds.
out of what is holding
winter in the air, thick
like a tessellated plane.
dawn broke cold this morning.
i thought of you the way i always wanted
to think of you: as docile as my dreams
told me to be. then the morning fog shaded
the rolling hills out from the greens and
browns of late winter to the white blues
gulls danced along the pale orange
plane between the tree line and
wrapped up the easter sky.
i used to be thankful you are now
a whole world away, but these
mornings have taught me otherwise.
gratitude is for the ego.
in this dark and grayer world of trimmed hedges,
floating berries, black against wet wind and sopped
birds sing less and boys wear more. boys that wear the
checked patterns in dyed wool. clouds that look like
wallpaper ash swing through like lines of logging saws.
say that something else comes. magpies are drawn
to such omens, as the only sentinels left, to dine on them
and be ready for that something else which comes.
that something else, that quick at the end of a whip
that something else, the white draw from your mouth
suspended in the light.
store up and live.
hold close and be warm.
whisper goodbye to a present sun, wait through the night
with belly deep breath,
one long way under one constant muffle.
the draw back in will be sharp, and will taste like the
gasp at snow for the very first time, and frozen air
shocked your rose pink lungs, new to the world but now,
again, the world can be new.