finally, there is something else.
besides the salt dust and sea
gravel shifting beneath my feet.
besides memories of wide open
seas and holding hands with a
future that wasn’t mine.
for an hour she followed the lines
traced by raindrops in the loose
for once surrendered to herself.
cats tell you they love you this way.
i counted the bloom of white tear drops,
and, couldn’t you have followed
the line i traced for you?
here you are and i’ve found you again
underneath the gentle sand and folded shells.
like whispered winter,
or the time we spent counting the frozen
leaves still dangling from the stoop weeds.
can you please reread this moment in
the gentle sunlight, can you please re-
read the tally of how many lovers have
forced us to becoming?
there are lost souls in the lake and they
are trying to remind us to let go of all
the things we are not.
fold yourself in underneath these
sheets and allow me to trace
something else, lines from every
point of energy to absolutely
pull out from underneath the ratted sheets.
the day is old when i wake like this.
this day is bred from wrinkled shrink wrap
and crumpled up ash.
i breathe into and out of the pose the lake holds
as though through the imitation, i could
be the peace the rest of the universe
settles itself into.
pull out from underneath the faded light.
the day is old.
i’ve quit the sticks, i think,
so i can learn to listen to
magnetic pins again.
when you remember to,
come find me.
this year i will be disappointed less
finding myself staring at blank ceilings less
wondering why i’m here less
wishing i could just put it together less
and just letting it all happen anyways
for my sin grows in the cracks of driveways
drought and cement and pesticide be damned
so sat john on the timber
an invitation had been lost
to colliding waves, set
along by the great green
listen to my dreams,
one could be the sun,
drawn by the shadow.
echoing audio into
standing rippling waves
who sing the shadow inside
i always find myself forgetting
the shape of his love.
like when i’m lost
in the constant passing by.
so i’ve pushed back on these
i’ve been pulling them back, to
hear the sound inside
life as it
would have been.
and its nothing but the
i can bring back yesterday
in a breath of august wind,
i leave with my dreams
and now, rebuild myself with them.
like tightening the screw on
millions of old joints.
i am only loosed laced together.
every cigarette tastes old now,
and even the trees are sighing now.
light and space in the head rush
and i only rush
to feel earth again.
even the moon is tired now.
even the fall will fall now. for,
i reside only in my dreams
fingers and calloused eyes.